I have issues

I know this. You now know this. John has probably always known this. I have issues. I think we all do but I will mention mine here.

I have trouble with goodbyes.

I am not good at them. I can't do them. Nothing feels right about them. I think it is because the way that I look at them, I have only said "goodbye" to a few people in my life. Everyone else I just say see ya later. I believe that there is a purpose for everyone that comes into our lives. There is a reason why they were brought to you. You are supposed to "get" something out of everyone that crosses your path. To say goodbye to me means never thinking/seeing/feeling anything about that person again. I can name two people that I have said that to and I no longer consider them friends.

Although I have done my countdown and mentioned I am leaving, I am in no way saying goodbye. I have made amazing friends here and I intend on doing what I have to to keep them (can you put two to's next to each other? hrm. Someone get out their red pen and make it right!) Sorry. I was being serious. Ok. I am ready. I am still great friends with the people that matter to me in MI and I have been gone from there for 11.5 years and I intend on staying friends with the people that matter to me here too.

That doesn't mean that I won't be sad when I leave. Many tears have been shed and will be shed in the months to come. I will definitely miss the day to day contact and so forth. But this is definitely not goodbye. It is a see you all real soon!